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07 October 2009

~todae~

Today's paper was ez, okaay, not ez, counted ez lol... compo wrote 5 pages (heck, i noe, tht's one of the longest compos i've written for an examination... but okaay) Mrs Khoo didn't come to sch... shud i b happy bout it?

Ceiling finally gave me the 4th book for OHSHC... after 2-3 wks >o> yeaah n as usual Zhining was the 1st person to b in sch haha thn me second, Nat was the third haha always the same eh, 1st, 2nd, 3rd... but sometimes me n Zhining 'switch places' o.o so if we were to switch places... i dunno wht time she'd come to sch o.o thn Zhining keep blaming me 'y u all muz take tht exam!?! thn we muz eat lunch wif poh!' wth, she thinks i want to? ok la... kinda wanted this exam was earlier la... w8 tht's not the point o.o i don wanna take the exam... but no choice eh? it's MOE's decision, not mine, Zhining, go blame MOE for tht, don blame me =D
kinda surprised wen i saw TG in front of me... thn i was like... okaay, gotta accept it sometimes wen TG wanna ask me sth, i'll b like... (ok, no offence here kays?) last time wen everyone disliked me, she disliked me too, doesnt dare to talk to me, saying tht she'll lose some frens in the class. But, now? keep asking me Qs, i dunno how to tell her to stop asking me, coz i think maybe bcoz she has got no one else to ask...? Well, we're classmates after all, right?
i don like her, i don hate her, i don dislike her, i don love her (duhhhh!)... how do i treat her like? like wht i'd do to other ppl if they ask for help? i dunno... all knew is tht, i nev treat anyone as a real fren b4 (okaay except for 3 of them... since i know them pretty well)
ok gtg... tmr's my math paper, n i don wanna fall asleep while doing lol

I was once quite happy, happy with the friends all around me. But that was only until P3, after that, the friends i knew in P1-3 which was also in my P4 class did not dare to come near me, because they thought that they will be despised by their friends whom they only met on that very year. They would rather leave me alone in that class. I never hated them, because i knew how they felt, I knew why other people disliked me. But later on, I found out that I was not being disliked by that reason I heard of, and I heard many other rumours about me and i found out one of the rumours was actually spread by a girl whom I knew from P1 and acts like an angel in front of me, I told myself, never to say that people were my friends that easily again, or ellse the person who gets hurt in the end is me, not the 'friend'.

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